Why are we all so fucking fake?

Really wish I had friends.

Homecoming oh yeah

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My favorite tumblrs: I have too many to list. Plus I don’t feel like finding the URLs of all of them.

My views on mainstream music: Some songs I hear on the radio I don’t mind listening to, but it’s the fact that in a matter of days they’re replayed 100 times and then they just become played out so quickly. It’s not like I wouldn’t listen to it but I just don’t like the way it’s brought out.

Highs and lows of the past year: Last year around this time I was all right but heading into a deeper depression than I had been to in a long time. Around December my attitude started picking up but all throughout the school year I was miserable simply because I hated school SOO much. I hated my teachers and for a while I didn’t feel like I had any friends… I don’t know, last year really sucked. My high points all came from the summer time.

My beliefs: This is a weird thing to write about because I don’t know how to go about answering. I believe in God and what the Bible tells me. I believe it’s wrong to be cruel to people or to hurt anyone or anything with intent. I believe most people have reason for being however good or bad they are and I believe that being a good person means you know the difference from right and wrong and despite any temptations or pressure or whatever you still make the choice to do the right thing. I don’t know, I believe a lot of things.

Disrespecting my parents: This isn’t a question at all. But I guess I disrespect my parents only because I take advantage of the fact that they let me do whatever I want. I also talk badly about my dad behind his back, but really I love my parents.

How important I think education is: It’s important to be educated but I think our school systems go about teaching in the wrong way. We should learn things that we feel will benefit us in our life; of course when we’re old enough to know what we want. We shouldn’t just be taught what they think we need to know.

One of my favorite shows: Awkward.

and you know what? I don’t care. You were never really my friends anyway and you obviously never cared about me. I’m so over wasting my time working to make our relationships work when they mean nothing.

Bullet my day:

• Slept in
• Quickly got ready for school only to remember I didn’t have a time limit on getting there because Concert Choir was meeting at the park……
• Ate food with my choir
• Got henna’d
• Returned to school
• English consisted of a marsh mellow challenge and stuff
• My T.A. period consisted of stapling 480 pieces of paper together. = 240 copies of a test = eight stacks of 30
• Had to find an extension cord because my car died AT SCHOOL
• Went home with Owen
• Went grocery shopping with Owen
• Made some delicious bean dip that I discovered at the choir picnic
• Took a nap
• Owen
• Had to jump my car AGAIN because after letting my mom borrow my car she left the lights on and some how managed to leave her keys in there as well as leaving the car in drive
• Took Owen home
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Somewhere I would like to move to or visit: Hopefully I’ll end up moving to Seattle but I’ve always wanted to go to Ireland. It’s not realistic to think I’d ever live there but that’d be pretty amazing.

My earliest memory: I guess would be on my third birthday where I was at the foot of my parents bed early in the morning. We were “arguing” on whether or not I was turning three. They said yes, I was convinced I was turning two. I know for sure though that it was on my third birthday because I was purposely being stupid and lying by saying I thought I was turning two, again.

How I want my future to look like: I’ve already answered this question…

My first kiss and first love: Well, they’re different people. My first kiss took place when I was too young to remember it. The first one I remember was terrible and I hated it. I’ve thought in the past that I loved people when really I didn’t. In reality I was young and stupid. My real first love is the one I’m with now and is the one I’ll stay with 4eVeRRRRr. hahaha.

10 songs on shuffle:

New Math, Brothers on a Hotel Bed, Lookout Weekend, Spare-Ohs, Power, Sweet Pea, The Writer, Littlest Things, What Sarah Said, Mango Tree.

Maybe eventually I’ll just do these on the days I’m supposed to.

thirty facts about myself: I have red hair, am left handed, have a black mother, have a younger sister, am a senior in high school, have a boyfriend, drive a purple convertible Sebring, do not go on Facebook, am afraid of the dark, prefer sleep over anything else, work at Burger Ville, love all things Harry Potter, suppose I have an eating disorder, live in Oregon, have a brother I do not know, love giraffes, love yellow, love my Ducks (ha ha),  love love love math of most sorts, love soy sauce and rice, hate looking in the mirror, hate basket-ball shorts, hate ignorance, hate spiders, want to lose thirty pounds, want to be dark, want to go to cosmetology school, can’t think of anymore, regret deciding to do the ‘thirty day challenge’, don’t want to quit.

My zodiac sign, do I fit it? I don’t know if I fit it but I am a sagittarius.

I felt pretty satisfied with my life when I first got my job because I got all my stuff together. Today I feel pretty satisfied with life. I’ve got nothing to complain about, except my weight of course.